It's been a while.....business as usual, social life none existent ....:(
My brain has been working overtime.
Have been waking up super super early (at 5.30am no less) for the past 4 weeks. Had to do in order to beat the traffic. Felt like I was going back to school. New job has been taking over my life. BFF is pestering me with her wedding plan arrangement. Mum & I have not been in good terms this past few weeks.
March comes & goes. It's April & I'm turning 30 this month. Yup, the BIG 30!!!**sigh** Time flies when you're having fun (or not). What saddened me the most is (I know this is gonna sound silly)...I missed having to celebrate my B-day with my ex BF....
I guess I just miss HIM, period. I mean it has been a while & I think I'm ready to move on but my heart just got burned really bad that any attempt to give it another try died down pretty quickly before you could even say B-O-Y-E-E-F-R-E-N. I hate feeling this way & I know I should just be happy that I didn't get married for the wrong reason. For all I know if I were to get married 2 years ago to HIM, I would probably be a mother of one with ISSUES. And thinking back of the said issues does make me wander why I love HIM so much...* sigh* guess it's just one of those mysteries in life. But I do miss HIM a lot (still do... ) & I still love HIM but I also hate HIM all at the same time,.... it's pretty confusing at times & it just drives me nuts!!. He was after all the love of my life. And I know that when you break up with your BF & if you do still love him, you're supposed to wish him the best in life & hope that he's happy doing whatever that he's doing, well .............I for once would like to wish that...
HE'S FUCKING MISERABLE FOR THE REST OF HIS LIFE & IF HE DOES GET MARRIED, I HOPE HE HAS A BAD ONE!!!!!!!
2 comments:
I think it's utter bullshit this 'wishing the ex boyfriend all the best' and blah blah blah. If he hurt you, then screw him to hell. I might forgive, but i would never wish the person the best. I'd just wish to never see his sorry ass again!
All the same, i'm sorry you're feelin low. Hope things pick up soon
You know what they say....there is a fine line between love & hate
Yea, your're right about the 'wishing the ex bla..bla..bla..' I mean why would anyone in their right mind would want to wish someone who has hurt them THE BEST. I did try to be forgiving but seriously, is it even possible to just lick the wound & forget & wish him the best? If someone out there that can do this, then you're an idiot but at the some time I applaud your for being such an angel.
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